Geri went to bed shortly after 7pm because she wasn’t feeling good. WISC decided to run local programming instead of “The Big Bang Theory.” I don’t remember what the proper grammar rule is when you end a sentence with quotes. Period inside or outside the quotation marks? I’m too lazy to look it up now.
I should be taking advantage of Geri’s unfortunate illness. I could do something nice like finish washing the dishes or folding laundry. Maybe I could catch up on video podcasts on our AppleTV. Perhaps I could finally finish editing the audio segment I’ve been poking at for three weeks. Instead, I sat on my butt and watched TV.
(This next section is out of order but this is how it came out of my head.)
I think its a combination of a few things. I lack motivation. (Thank you captain obvious!) What’s the prize at the end of the road? Should there even be a prize? Last night I had to work on an outage for 2 1/2 hours during what is typically my play time. I couldn’t join in a few Talkshoe shows that I normally participate in.*
While I don’t usually mind being the guy that brings it all together, there were many factors leading up to my involvement that didn’t make me happy. Unfortunately, I would like to keep my job and I shouldn’t list them here. I didn’t get upset until it was all over and I was making a list of events. How could we have done this differently? (Three points removed to keep my job!) Why did it take 10 hours before someone called me? I was so wound up after the outage that I didn’t sleep well at all.
I knew I had to get a lot accomplished at work today, so I focused a lot of energy into work. It wasn’t a rough day. If I had to sum it up in one word, it would be: meh. I accomplished lots of little things but nothing that really made me feel good when I left. I know better… the payoff will come later, but my head isn’t in that frame of mind right now.
Now that I’m typing this, a few things do come to mind that make me happy. I cooked dinner tonight. We made something new, lemon herb chicken. Ok, so the sauce came in a packet, but its still different. Geri made potatoes with Lipton Onion Soup mix that were great. Overall it was pretty good and I was happy for both of us. We stuck to our meal plan.
One more thing I consider a small win… I’m updating this blog. If I could tag this it would be under: youreallyshouldconsiderthisapersonaljournalentryandnotpostitbecauseitsucks
Perhaps this is my turning point for the week.
Thanks for putting up with the ramblings of the sleep deprived. (Yes I know I have nothing on you TheMacMommy, leave me alone!)
